Stress Management

In my case I completely rule out stress due to fear of death, as a matter of fact neither I have slightest fear of death nor I have any worry about what will happen to my family. I have done my best to ensure that my family will be able to lead normal life in my absence. After all human beings have limited control over the destiny and things should be left to the Almighty beyond your capacities. Moreover mine is low grade NHL so I am sure that even if I had not treated this no major problems could have appeared in next 3-4 years. I feel that the reasons for stress pertain to [1] physical pain and weakness, [2] incapacity to lead normal life and [3] emotional state of mind which fluctuate from time to time out of the frustration that the ailment has forced me to divert my energies from planned course of action.
Whenever I had such physical bouts of stress for initial few hours, I found that my brain stopped my usual objective analytical approach; I am forced to lie down for some time. These physical bouts are caused mainly due to severe headache, pain in the legs, feeling of weakness or feeling of inexplicable uneasiness due to breathing troubles. I knew right from the beginning of detection of my cancer that even the slightest show of my stress will cause big stress to my wife. When my objective faculty awakens I ask myself whether I am trying to seek more attention. Whether I am looking for sympathy? Normally these two questions pull me out of the melancholy. Being head of the family I cannot afford these luxuries. This sound little impractical but as soon as such doubts flash across my mind I pull out a book by Pu. La. And start reading that. I call it a Pu. La. therapy. I sincerely pity those who do not have access this sure-shot remedy.
Emotional stress is more difficult to deal with. I had a different plan of leading my life in my mind. I had applied for voluntary retirement in the month of November but within a fortnight this cancer was detected and therefore I am forced by circumstances to keep my plan on hold. Lot of stress is generated due to this frustration. I feel completely out of control of my life and have to meekly accept the present situation. I have habit of day dreaming, as a result, I keep on planning for future course. I am also very impatient by nature and has habit of expecting quick results from my plans. Unfortunately I am unable to execute my plans. I have no option than to accept the situation.